And yet a nother combustion of thoughts

Christmas,

When we were children, our parents taught us that it was a time for family, and giving and love all around. Somewhere along the line I think that we forget that Christmas is about family. As a cashier, I see that for most adults, Christmas is about gift giving, spending, making sure you get EVERYTHING you need to make your children happy, which causes stress, and even makes you get mad at the cashiers for just doing their job. The truth is adults, it's not the children that need that lesson, it's you. Adults: Christmas, is a time of giving. Not stressing and taking it out on the people who are selling you the gifts you buy. You shouldn't be getting angry if you're not getting the sale, because as you tell your children, it's the thought that counts, not the price. So Adults, make sure YOU know that Christmas is about giving, love, and family, before you tell that to your children, otherwise you're setting a terrible example.

The Biggest Ass Theory

Maybe everyone was right. Maybe I AM a pompous ass.

I just read you're blog. You said that I have made you believe "that two people can('t) stay together forever". I crush dreams, I destroy hope. Do I ever do anything right? It doesn't seem like it.

Chelsey, I'm sorry, you have no idea how sorry I am. I have killed your dream of love, your hope for ever finding love. Just say it, I am the biggest asshole around. If you were so sorry for posting what you posted, why did you post it? Couldn't you have wrote it on a piece of paper and locked it away somewhere? Or show it to the people you want to read it? I'm sorry, I've said it a thousand times, I don't know what else to say Chelsey. I tell you how the music video is going, and you make me feel like a total jerk for filming it.

Speaking of the music video, it's going great, got lots of filming done, and can't wait for it to be finished.

Back to where I was. I'm sorry, I'm an asshole.

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Now to the lighter side of life.

Chris. Thank yous o much for coming down, I had a blast as always! PS The music video is looking sharp....love the shirt you wore in it lol!

Caitlin. Just like every time, I enjoy every second I spend with you, and dread the moment we part, and then look forward to the next time I see you.

For those who want to see the music video, it should be finished mid-January

Stay Tuned!

Lot's to say

Well I have lots to say, most of it I can't, but I'm gonna try my best to tell as much as I can.

First of all HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY and I hope it was a good one for you!

Secondly, I saw Les Misérables and you guys were fucking awesome! Matt G, you have grown soooo much since Grease, and I'm proud of you!

Christmas is coming, and OMG I have like no money to get people stuff and arrgghhhh!!!!! I'm trying but Sobeys only pays me so much....well not enough actually -_- Assholes, but any whore, life is alright, Chelsey, if you're reading this (see my good grammar :O ) it was great talking to you last night, like I said, if we didn't work out as a couple, we would always be best friends, I promised that, and it's a promise I intend to keep.

Sweeney was fantastic, I miss you guys already, we definitely get together for Christmas or New Years thing!

I'm in a new play now, it's called Unity: 1918 and it's being played at the Durham Shoestring Performers, I'm really excited :)

To my new buddy Caitlin, having lots of fun when we get together, even if it's for a couple hours at a mall talking or going over for a lot of hours and watching a movie and talking, I love spending time with you, and hope that all that sticks.

To my best friend Mel, you're an awesome friend, you're always there for me, and if I didn't have you as a friend, I don't know where I would be today, thank you so much for being that awesome friend.

To my best friend Chris, so I can't wait to see you this week, gonna be siick! Filming and just getting together in general, it's gonna be wicked.

I think I touched on everything on my mind, oh wait, Chrystal, hang in there kiddo, there is someone for you out there, just be single for a while, you need to find who you are again,

th-th-th-that's all f-f-f-f-f-f-folkes!

impact

I didn't think this would have as much as an impact as it has on me. It's been 4 days, yet seeing you hurt is still killing me. But there is nothing I can do, I can't go back, because I know for a fact I will just get hurt again. Why? I don't understand! I'll check your Facebook, your Tagged, but why am I? I care about you yes, that's a definite. As far as I know there are on lingering feelings. Maybe I'm being protective? Who knows? Yet if I'm being protective, why am I wanting space from all this?

Why?