Need to vent before I leave

So much is going on in my life right now. I am completely swamped with assignments, all due this week (well most of them). One due today, which I will be working on as soon as I get to school. One due tomorrow, that I have to do today or I lose 25%. I also have one due next Wednesday for history. My God I am so fucking stressed with school right now!

On a plus side, I'm taking it slow with this wonderful woman. Don't want to say any names, but she is just fucking amazing! I have never felt this happy around one person in my life! She's helped me bring my faith back as well, as I have strayed from God's path for a few years now. She always knows how to cheer me up, she's always there for me, she trusts me, she's understanding, and to top it all off, she's beautiful! We're taking things slow because in past relationships, actually all of them, I have rushed into things and they had soon died out. Now, taking things slow is proving well worth it, because that flame that we have isn't dying. I still get butterflies around you, the way you look at me, the way your skin brushes up against mine on occasion, when we hold hands, I am filled with joy and those wonderful butterflies (wow that sounds really fuckin' cheesy). But to make my point, she's amazing and I can't wait to see where this goes. Thank you God for letting her walk into my life and letting her stay as well. I am truly grateful.

College: So far so good

Heya everyone! I haven't had time to blog lately, school and work are making me hellishly busy, in the best  way possible.
I've been in college for two weeks now, and so far I am absolutely loving it! Everyone is friendly and everyone is just so welcoming. The workload is as expected, the textbooks are extremely expensive (and I'm not done buying yet!!)
But so far, the friends I have made are great! I have honestly never met so many great guys in my life! In high school and elementary school, all the guys were dicks to me, and would tease me every chance they got. Here, everyone is funny, and awesome!
I'd never thought I'd say this, but so far Canadian Broadcasting History is my favourite course. History! I have NEVER liked history!! But now I look forward to my profs class every single week!


Anyways, I really gotta get back to my homework, toodles!

PS, they guy in the photograph is Mitch, one of my new buds, and yes I took the picture :)

First Day of College :D

Just a quickie here guys (well, maybe it won't turn out to be a quickie, but we will see)

Today was my first day of college, not really classes, just an Orientation, but still, I got a feel of the college environment. I loved it, made some friends, had some laughs, got familiar with the campus, and now I have to be there for 9:30 am..... THAT should be interesting because I have to be up for 5 *huuugggeeeee sigh*

Oh well, it's something that I love so it will be well worth it in the end

Teaser!

I got the teaser trailer up on YouTube for all of you to see!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5m8ALJL3Yuo

Enjoy!!

iDate

I don't want to jinx it, but everything for this short film that I am working on is falling into place soooo fucking well, it's almost scary! I have two fantastic actors working with me and an awesome assistant director, and just everything is coming together so wonderfully. I went to a little bakery/cafe that my neighbour owns, and she's letting me film there, telling me that if they need to stay open later they will for us and everything is absolutely amazing!

We are due to start filming on Monday and I am SOOO excited to get under way :)

Just wanted to share that!!

What a Potter-Tastical Weekend!!

Well, I was in Woodstock this weekend with my friend Katie. Well, I went there knowing one person, and now I am coming home and have 3 new friends :) Not gonna lie, that was the best part of the weekend!!
It was a simple start really, just chillin' with my best friend Katie and then went to Steph's to swim, which was just, well, a lot of memories there. Some will stay in the pool and never leave :p
Once we were done there, I stayed the night at Katie's, and I now, and will forever, hate cats and I will never get my own because this one decided that it was gonna keep me up all night by laying on me. Remember, I'm a restless sleeper and move a lot. Well, this cat decided that every time I move it would hiss at me and try to attack whatever part of me had just moved. Which was really fucking annoying!
So, then the next day we start the marathon at around 3. Nothing too exciting happened, only that I had 2 new close friends and a dog that loooovveeeesss me, yet barks at me for attention (which is adorable by the way) Then the Harry Potter Marathon began. After the first movie, we ordered pizza and bought 2 4 packs of energy drinks so we could stay up (the sugary stuff was already at home). We made cake, had the Bertie Botts Every Flavoured Beans, and we had Pumpkin Juice (AKA Orange Crush). After the marathon, we all TRIED to sleep, I think only 2 of us succeeded. My friend Katie and I just couldn't fall asleep. Thus I have been awake since noon yesterday :D should be an awesome rest of the day.

The best part is that I am now stuck with a british accent because at 9:30 last night we decided that we were going to talk with the accents until the marathon was over. Well, it carried over and now I can't stop talking like this. Should be an interesting day at work tomorrow!!

Peace guys!!

What a Day!

Well today was definitely interesting, I made my way to my campus, and somehow got lost. Well, I guess I can tell you how I got lost. I was SUPPOSED to go in a straight line, but I thought that I knew where I was going and decided to stray from the straight line, rendering me lost. I eventually did find my way back, which is a plus! Once I found the campus I stayed  a while watching some summer students in the studio doing their work on filming a segment for some college tv show thing, it was pretty cool. So then on my way back to the train station, I decided that I was hungry and I headed to Pizza Pizza for some grub. On my way there some random crazy little old black lady decided to scream at the top of her lungs, a couple feet away from me "GO FUCK YOURSELF!!" It scared the bejesus out of me! I thought she was going to hit me.

That's it for now :)

PS the subway is my new best friend :)

out and about

Well, tomorrow I will be out of town, and this weekend I will be too, but obviously tomorrow is sooner and, well kinda more important than a Harry Potter Marathon (no offence Katie!!) But anyways, tomorrow I will be taking a trip to Toronto to figure out how long and how difficult getting to Centennial will be, so hopefully all goes well :) Now I won't tell people times (just in case you stalkers out there are gonna try and kill me) But it should be a fun trip all and all.

Which is weird, I have been very paranoid about that kinda shit lately, I don't know why, but I have been, it's been weird, but whatever right? Hopefully it's nothing serious lol

Anyways, Ciao guys!

and yes that is a screen shot :P

a Quickie before work!

Just wanted to make a quick shout out to all you loyal followers before I leave for work. I wanted to let you all know that I am working on a script and that it will be done soon! And hopefully it will be filmed and posted soon too.

Now to warn you, I am only using iMovie at this point in time but in a few months I will have my own copy of final cut pro :)

toodles!

Registration completed :)

So I got up at 6AM today to register for my college courses. Tired as fuck right now writing this (you know who you are!). This same person told me that I could just go to sleep after, yeah didn't happen -_-

Anyways! I'm very happy about my courses, even though they were already picked out for me. But the times I chose were awesome :) My earliest class is 11:30AM, so I don't have to be up at 4 or 5 just to catch a train to barely make it on time for my first class. And I don't have any late classes either, so I don't have to worry about trying to rush to get to the train to get home.

That is all for now :)

I GOT A MAC I GOT A MAC :D

So, after 5 years of waiting, I finally got a MacBook Pro :) Well, for school mainly or else I wouldn't have been able to get one otherwise. I absolutely LOVE my Mac! Fuck PC, Mac all the way! The best thing about this baby, is well, everything of course, but it can't get a virus or adware or spyware or anything. The operating system itself is an antivirus program, which is fucking awesome :D

I also checked the Centennial blog last night and FINALLY course registration is on Wednesday. So I set my alarm bright and early to get the courses I want :) (just to make it clear, I have NO idea what courses I need for this program, I guess that's why they have the online helper :P)

Oh and also with the Mac, I got a FREE iPod Touch with it because I bought it for school, so I am LOVING it :D Also I picked up Adobe CS5 Design Standard Suite for students, which is pretty awesome too.

So yeah, Mac is awesome...


PS
I LOVE Photo Booth :D

Teddy

Okay, so yesterday I cam home from work and found out that my dog, Teddy, had hurt himself again.
Teddy is a cross between a miniature and a toy poodle, and he is 13 years old.
He has a bad back and this is the second time he has hurt himself like this. He whines every time he moves, which isn't much, he can't sit still and he is in so much pain. It honestly breaks my heart to see him like this. I have pretty much had Teddy my whole life. I am 20 now, I've had Teddy since I was 7, so this is really painful for me to watch.
This morning my mom told me that since he is getting old, we don't know if he is going to get better, and ultimately, I'm assuming, have to put him down. Without hesitation that will be the hardest thing I will ever have to endure to date.
Please Teddy, get better, I know you have so much life in there, and the pain is holding you back. I need you to get better. Sometimes, I know this sounds cheesey, but sometimes I feel that Teddy is the only one know understands me. I know he is a dog and it's a stupid thing to say, but it's honestly how I feel.

I love you Teddy, please get better!

Easily the best weekend of my life!!!

OK, so this past weekend I saw Marianas Trench live in Brantford at the HockeyFest concert. Have I ever mentioned that Marianas Trench is my favourite band??? Well they are. Straight up, easily said, my favourite band of all time! This entry won't be long because words can't describe this weekend at all. I wanna thank Katie, and her mom for making this weekend possible!!!

Can I have your Attention???

I swore I would never do this....

Can I have your attention?
I just open my mouth
Is it clear?
Is it loud for you?

You just need me to be stable
But I won't be able
To keep it together again
Now don't pretty please me
Do not make it that easy to slow me down

It's no wonder
I'm not eating
I'm not sleeping
You sing
Sing, sing to me
Sing me something I need
Sing you, sing you
God I wish that I could

Are you hearing me now?
Heard the sad little sounds as they fall from my mouth

You just need me to be stable
But I won't be able
To keep it together again
Now don't pretty please me
Do not make it that easy to slow me down

It's no wonder
I'm not eating
I'm not sleeping
You sing
Sing, sing to me
Sing me something I need
Sing you, sing you
God I wish that I could

All my indecision
All of my excess
Don't you ever tell me I'm not lovin' you best
I just need a minute
I just need a breathe
You're very hard to drink to my continued success

Do I have your attention?

You just need me to be stable
But I won't be able
To keep it together again
(Together again)
Now don't pretty please me
Do not make it that easy to slow me down

It's no wonder
I'm not eating
I'm not sleeping
You sing
Sing, sing to me
Sing me something I need
Sing you, sing you
God I wish that I could

All my indecision
All of my excess
Don't you ever tell me I'm not lovin' you best
All my indecision
All of my excess
Don't you ever tell me I'm not lovin' you best

Finally?

OK, so the last blog I wrote about my sister. I don't know if she read it at all, but out of no where today, she seemed concerned about how I was feelings and she voiced it (well facebooked me) and asked me if I wanted advise. Now all you people out there who are thinking "and this is worth blogging?". Well yes it is. Because up until now we barely even spoke. I've told her that I'm always there for her, and now she comes out of nowhere and offers to be a part of my life. I love it! I've always wanted that relationship with my sister that we would be best friends, and I'm happy that it's finally beginning to show signs of life!

Just a quickie today, but it was an important one!!

[can't think of a title]

So I wrote the script for the short film today, didn't take long because, well, i't s a short film. 2 pages plus the cover. Really excited to start filming :)

Just thought I would keep you posted!

On a roll!!

Wow I am definitely on a roll here!
Well within the last seven days I have successfully come up with 3 different film ideas, two of which are very manageable right now. SO stoked! I would love to share them all with you, but unfortunately in the business of film, ideas are kept very secret until such a time where they can be released without the idea being "stolen" for a lack of a better term. But I can share a couple things about these ideas. One is a blonde joke I read somewhere, relatively simple environment to film in, and could prove a very successful short film. Another one I can openly state: I am planning on filming a documentary about WW2 war stories. This idea came from my grandparents talking about the war today and I thought that somehow we should preserve these stories. Not on paper because you don't get the full experience if you are just reading it, so I decided to plan a documentary. And lastly  all I can say is that I have emailed a certain famous someone's agent and manager about getting permissions about a certain something.
I really hope I can get these projects up on it's feet in the near future (once I get my camera back... SOMEONE is using it for a certain school project)

PS.
Kay, you're a dork!

"I'm SO writing a blog about this"

Wow, what an eventful day. It all started off donating blood this afternoon. After that was all done I got home and relaxed for about half an hour then realized I needed to drop off a movie at Sobeys for someone to borrow. I got there ay okay, rode my bike so I got there in about 15 minutes. Pretty good, I got there gave my co-worker the DVD, then headed up to the cash office to say hi to the people there. I started to feel a bit dizzy, and I tried to shake it off but it wouldn't go away so I tried to walk it off but the stars in my vision wouldn't go away. I then realized I needed to get my sugar level back up, so I went to buy some cookies and a bottle of orange juice or something. But then I saw Paul and had to ask him something, I knew it wouldn't take long and that I coudl get to my sugar buying soon enough. As soon as he started talking, I felt duzzy, and felt sick, I kept thinking "I'm gonna be sick I'm gonna be sick". The next thing I know Paul is saying" Eric, yo man you ok?" I responded with "Huh? What happened?" I was sitting in the meat bin where he was working and had no idea how I got there. Realizing that I had just blacked out I tell him and the small crowd that had formed around me that "I'm alright". I then got up went to the front and my good buddy Kristen decided that she was going to drive me home. Well, it was a great idea until we realized that my bike wouldn't fit in her trunk. So then we tried to fit both me and my bike in the back seat, which didn't work because I couldn't sit down. So, since Jess was in the front seat we only had one option. The bike goes in the back seat, and I go in the trunk. So dangerous, so illegal but it was the most fun experience I have EVER had in a car!

So thanks to Paul, Kristen, Jess, and the Canadian Blood services people for making this such a remarkable day !

Cannibis

Attention people who do weed to get high: what the fuck is wrong with you? First of all, what's wrong with being sober? You can have all the fun you want by being sober. Getting high, first of all, does serious brain damage and also (for those women who are trying) lowers womens chances of getting pregnant and also reduces sperm count in males. I could go on and on but he bottom line is: if you're thinking about the now; don't. Your future is more important than your now. Because what happens in the now effects your future so why fuck that up. So putting that into perspective, on April 20th every single year you are celebrating, not "international smoke pot" day but "let's fuck up our future today" day. Why the fuck would you want to celebrate a day that fucks up your life? Does that make any sense what-so-ever? It's the same thing when people get piss drunk. The only comment I have is: why? You feel horrible in the morning, HUGE headache, vomiting all night and a lot of the morning (or whenever you wake up) and also alcohol poisoning can kill.
Seriously people, if you want a REAL high, do something you REALLY enjoy, for lack of a better word, a passion. I act in community theatre, I absolutely love it, gets my adrenaline pumping and puts me in a good mood, even when my character is a depressed son of a bitch. I also LOVE to make films, which also gets my adrenaline going, or playing hockey, or something!

Bottom line, don't do drugs (or for those who don't think weed is a drug, don't smoke weed either), it will destroy your future.

People

OK so I was at work today. For those who don't know I am a cashier at Sobeys in Whitby. There are certain things that piss me right the fuck off. So those who wish to make the world a safer place, here is what NOT to do when you get to a cash register.

First of all, the EXPRESS, well, speaks for itself. The sign says 1-8 items. Not 10, not 15, not 20, not 9. 1-8 . If you can't count, put your groceries down and go back to school.
Secondly if YOU have bags, pack them YOURSELF. They are yours, you bought them, your responsibility, YOU pack YOUR bags. You throwing YOUR bags at me tells me that you're fucking lazy and treat me like I'm your bitch. NEWS FLASH: I'm not your bitch. I am a cashier, which means I scan your shit and cash you out. No where in the word cashier does it say I'm your bitch. So don't treat me like one.
Thirdly, if you own a cell phone, and it goes off IGNORE IT! Your phone is not going anywhere, you can wait three minutes to call that person back. If you are on the phone when I am done with the previous customer, HANG UP. I am a person too who would like a conversation and who has feelings. Plus it's rude, so no cell phone ok? :)
Next, if you're a rude (son of a) bitch, either stay home, starve to death or get someone pleasant to do your shopping for you, once again, hello I'm not your bitch or your emotional punching bag. If you ARE rude to me, I will return the favour kay? :)
My number one pet peeve. If you have a basket, EMPTY IT!! I am NOT your slave. If you do not co-operate when I ask nicely, your shit will get dumped on the belt, regardless of what is in it. Same goes for YOUR bags.

So, if you are wondering why the cashier seemed to be in a foul mood, you or someone else probably did one of these things. If you want to avoid an angry cashier, be nice to them, we are people too!

PS Mr. iPod guy, TURN OFF YOUR FUCKING MUSIC AND STOP BEING SO GOD DAMNED LAZY!!

That is all :)

Friends

The definition of friends from www.merriam-webster.com:

 Pronunciation: \ˈfrend\

Function: noun

Etymology: Middle English frend, from Old English frēond; akin to Old High Germanfriunt friend, Old English frēon to love, frēo free

Date: before 12th century

1 a : one attached to another by affection or esteem

(http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/friend)

This is the official definition of friend. To me, it's a little too old fashioned, so I will try to explain MY definition of friendship.

A friend is someone who you you can always rely on when you are down, a crutch so to say. A friend is someone you are always there for. A friend is someone who doesn't blow you off for their bf/gf.

And this is where this blog ACTUALLY begins.

You once told me that it wouldn't happen again, that you're "boyfriend" wouldn't get in the way of our friendship again. Well, you lied. It has.

Today you went to see your "boyfriend" and you said, "I'll t(e)xt you later I'm with (boyfriend)". That was the FIRST text I got from you when I said hello to you in a text message. All I wanted to do was text, or talk or say hey kinda thing. You could have talked for a bit instead of completely blowing me off from first contact. The last text you sent was "Im with him am i not allowed to just focus on him (?)" Well yes of course you can! he's your boyfriend I can't stop that. But it's nice to show a little courtesy to your best friend. 

Now this only applies to me, but this is how I order people in my life according to importance:

1.Family

2. Friends

3. Girlfriend (aka Chelsey)

Does that make sense? For example, one day Chelsey may not be there (this is hypothetical of course), my friends will be there for me no matter what, well the true friends will be. If you cut off your friends, who will you have to help you get back up on your feet? Yes family will be there, but they never do as good of a job as your friends.

Keep that in mind please the next time you decide to blow off your best friend. 

Centennial Bound!

PS
I got accepted to Centennial College for Broadcasting and Film!!
YIPPEEEE!!

Now just waiting for the bill :)

Best Friends Forever?

That's what you told me. You promised time and time again and now look what you're doing. You were the only person I could go to about anything, and now look what you're doing; you are taking away a lot from me. You were my best friend that I could go to about anything whether it was good or bad, you were the first to know most of the time. Now, you're ignoring me. Because of some kind of curse? Yeah I fucked up, but that's why people give second chances and I don't understand why you won't give me that chance. It hurts so much! You tell me I am not listening to your side of the story, but you are not explaining it properly. Something about a best friend curse and that you can never have a best friend. Please give me that second chance to show you. I promise that I won't hurt you! I am not trying to toot my own horn but I am a really good friend and I deserve that chance to show you. I promise I will not hurt you and i will be the best friend you ever had.
I hope you read this and I really want this to work out between the two of us.

Unity 2010

April 4 2010,
Today is the day after Unity 1918. There are a few people I want to acknowledge from this play that have made a huge impact on my life.

Darren: My one and only gay best friend. You have such talent Darren! You are one of few people in a play that I really want to keep in contact after the run is over. You have such enthusiasm and amazing charisma. You're close friendship is something that I treasure and will hold on to for many years to come. "Darren, would you like the honours of squirting my face?" lol what an awesome moment! Even when I was in a really down mood you always found a way to put a smile on my face, which can be a challenging task. Thank you for the memories and I look forward to new ones in the very near future.

Amy:  A new friendship in the making. You have awesome talent too, I look forward to be in new plays with you again and to continue this awesome friendship. You're an awesome person Amy, so so random, which is what is so awesome about you. I looked forward to seeing you every show/rehearsal because you always put a smile on my face. Thanks for the memories, looking forward to new ones.

Kathy: The best stage manager ever! So many laughs back stage. You are the hardest working, most fun stage manager I have ever met with the best sense of humour! I have learnt so much from you, and I look forward to working with you in future shows!


Carolyn: Wow. That is the best way to describe you're efforts in this show. You are so dedicated and you're enthusiasm for the show was amazing! Thank you so much for everything!

Thank you everyone who attended and supported the show in every fashion. For those who came out; thank you. Without you,  we wouldn't have a show.

Unity: 1918

This is the last week of Unity. I have had so much fun with you guys, I hope to work with all of you again in the future. But now since college calls I am not able to act in community theatre, too much stress, unfortunately. Thank you for all the laughs, the smiles and of course the fun we have all had on and off stage, have a great week everyone, and break a leg!

I might need help....

OK, so I might need therapy because I have a new addiction.
Yes you guessed it. The game "Little Big Planet" SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO addicting.

That is all

The Rainbow Theory

Well it's been a while since I blogged, and there is only a couple things I wanted to say.
1. Melissa, seriously wtf? Why are you acting the way you are. You used to be such a good friend and now you're turning into a selfish bitch and it kills me, it really does. You have my camera in your possession and you refuse to bring it to me. I can't afford it, yet you have the car to bring it, I really don't understand. It really hurts the way you're acting lately, and it's been since you have met Caitlin, no word of a lie, and it really bugs me!
2. College shit, hoorah I am getting closer to being accepted, just aced the English assessment today, fingers crossed!!
3. Melanie, I really hate how we can never get along, every time I try to get a moment to socialize, or just have fun with you, I get shut down, you may not know, but it really hurts. I want to be able to have a relationship with you, I always have. It seems like you hate me, I love you sissy, and I guess it's a one way thing, and it feels like it always will be.

Update, and the topic of Bags of Hell

Hey everyone!
Well this is a relief. I found some security settings here so that people who were looking for trouble, wouldn't find it.
To start this one off: Fuck you!
You send daddy off with a warning? Like seriously wtf? SOOOO immature! It was OUR relationship, and you get daddy involved. He said he didn't want me writing about you anymore or he would get the cops involved (hence the new security settings)? Seriously, you're entire family is immature, I don't understand why you would go to daddy about something we can fix ourselves. You wanted to get me charged with slander? Woah now, you have done the EXACT same thing with your blogs, PLUS you also vandalized my property, so yeah, if you wanna fucking pull that, go right ahead, it will just come back to bite you in the ass. But whatever as soon as I am getting my DVD back from you, you are gone from my life.

Bags of Hell:
Quite frankly, I am getting very sick of the reusable bags that customers bring through my till. I have mentioned them before, but I think they need more attention then a few mentions. First off. I am not your fucking slave. If you want YOUR bags packed the way YOU want them packed do it YOURSELF. Secondly. When you ask me if I want your bags, you don't hear it, but I always say

"I don't want to pack your fucking bags"

 Because I don't. You are quite capable of doing it yourself, but you are too God damned lazy to do it yourself. What is going to happen when Sobeys doesn't pack your bags anymore? Change stores? I don't fucking care, I'm just a cashier! Seriously people, pick up you're own fucking slack and pack your own God damned bags! (and you older generation say that WE are lazy...pssshhht!!)

Fed Up

Yes, I am now officially fed up with you're bullshit. Ever since this whole drama with Caitlin has started you have become a real self-centred person. Yes you were kind enough to drive me to the Whitby GO Station, which I am thankful for. BUT the drive was honestly horrible!

First of all you try and tell me to call Chelsey tell her I am going to miss the train and I am catching the next one. I don't change my plans because people tell me to miss a train, so fuck that.

Secondly, I had a headache yesterday. Yet you BLAST the music. Yes I made the mistake last night by drinking a beer too fast, but you didn't need to blast your music when I had a headache, seriously!

Lastly, I was trying to help you get to the GO Station, you were ignoring my directions and going by the GPS. I know how to get to the train station, you yelling at me was COMPLETELY uncalled for! I was trying to help you and you yell at me telling me I am being a backseat driver, like come on!

You say I'm the one being immature, if you actually evaluated yourself, you will realize that YOU are the one who is immature and not acting your own age.

That is all.

PS 6 Days 'til Opening Night!

SOOOOO MUCH STRESS!!!! GAH!

Sorry it has been a while since I last blogged, I have been so uber busy! Between College stuff, Unity, work, and a shit load of drama going on, I have not been able to find the time to blog.

So let's update shall we? Let's start with the drama. The whole Caitlin and Melissa thing? Ya, it's gotten worse. Caitlin burned, the most important video to me. Yes, she burned it. Now Melissa is starting to become more like Caitlin with the whole feeding off of drama and doing a great job creating her own as well. I really don't understand how people can do this. Melissa and I have been friends for 4 years, and she would sooner drop me than drop a friend she has known for like 2 months, does that make sense? Well it sure as hell doesn't to me. She wants me to apologize for not being there. Well the last time I checked she wasn't doing a very good job of that lately either, plus I have been SOO busy, I have barely even had time for Chelsey (and that's saying something). Between memorizing lines, trying to figure out my characters wants and needs, work, stress from work, stress from the whole college application shit PLUS all this fucked up drama, I haven't had the time to be able to get a hold of her. She has PLENTY of free time and she can't even throw a text message because of Caitlin, who I might say, is a complete bitch since her and I broke up. Plus she is trying to put shit into Chelsey's head, and so is Melissa which is REALLY pissing me off! And this is only the START of the drama.

Unity: We have ONE week before we have an audience in front of us, and 4 rehearsals in between. So yes, stress there too (and is Melissa there to help with that? No.) I pretty much know my lines but every rehearsal I catch myself calling line because I have hit a blank. So yes, stressing. We have no set, sound cues are JUST starting to be put together and we have no lights set up either. Our ladies have no costumes, so yes, the Hell Week has begun!

College: Application is bullshit. I have been waiting and waiting and waiting to hear from someone (other than Durham) and I still have heard nothing, ugh I hate waiting! I heard from the Prof at Centennial last week that I should "receive an offer within the next few days" that was over a week ago, and that's the college I REALLY want to get into. I went to Humber yesterday and not even NEAR the same feeling I got when I walked into Centennial. UGH!!!

Work: Fuck don't even get me started. All I have to say about that is that if you are in a pissy ass mood, don't fucking come in ok? It's THAT simple! I am not your slave, I am a cashier, there is a difference so suck it up. Do I want to pack your bags? NO! I only do because I have to and you are too God Damned fucking lazy to do it yourself!

So, I think that pretty much sums it up. 

Green Screens -_-

OK, so I wanted to rant about green screens. Apparently this is the new way to go in films. Yes, the technology is out there, and getting better day by day, but does it really need to get to the point where we don't need sets or actors anymore? Bottom line, I HATE green screen. I know it's what the cool kids are doing these days, but a set, and building a set is the key transformation with a film and the magic of a set, or even being on location, it's one of the key reasons why I want to get into film production. To travel to our location, see the world, film all around the globe, see the sites that are on the screen when you watch it in theatres; not stuck in a warehouse somewhere with a green screen and a shit load of lights and a camera. I like to be at the Eiffel Tower, in China, in London, or in my hometown's film location "Parkwood Mansion". And if that wasn't possible, then build a set that resembles that location. My last resort would be to use a green screen for something that was physically impossible to film. For example, I can't exactly take a camera to the moon and film astronauts walking on the moon, not gonna happen. I mean, let's take Avatar for example. Great movie, great special effects, but 90% of the movie was green screen, which pissed me off. There were places he could have filmed, like an actual forest, or build a hangar set, instead of using a green screen. Yes I understand that you can't exactly get a casting call asking for blue people, so those people would have been green screen. But why not do what they did for Davey Jones in Pirates? Put a guy in a special suit so that way yous till had an actor and not just a voice? That's just my opinion but whatever. A movie that a lot of people hate for example is one of my favourite movies, "Jumper". Great storyline and you don't even notice the special effects, which is what special effects were designed for. It actually looks like the people are "jumping" from place to place, which is what I love about it. Then there are movies like Avatar, the newest Star Wars movie, that are 90% green screen when you could have easily made a set or chosen a location for a purpose in the movie instead of using green screen.

Like when I watch a movie, I love to be able to say "Hey, I've been there! They ACTUALLY went on location". And I want to be able to give other audience members that same feeling when I put a film in theatres. I mean I like the luxury of a green screen, but to me it's a last resort and isn't necessary for the entire film.

My opinion though right?

A fantastic feeling

OK so yesterday I went to Centennial College for my admission session and OH MY GOD!!! You know that feeling when you walk into a building, whether it be for an interview, a new house, or in this case a college and you can see yourself walking those halls, going from room to room, well I got that feeling going into Centennial yesterday and it was the most amazing feeling I have ever had walking into a building. I had this overwhelming feeling that I got in. I was always paying attention to the professor (whose name ironically is Chris Terry :P ), I was always asking question and was in complete awe the entire tour . I was the first one done my writing assessment because I got right into it. During the tour I was in complete awe! The professor's office over looked the TV studio, which we then took a tour of the behind the scenes, and my jaw dropped, and I kept thinking, this is where I wanna go, this is where I want to go to school for my dream to come true. I had a really good feeling when I handed my paper in, I saw this look in the professor's eyes, and the way he said that I would hear back from him sometime next week that I was almost 100% percent sure that I got a spot. Now, I know I might be getting my hopes up here, but I just have a REALLY good feeling about this. there are only 30-40 spots per semester, and I REALLY hope I am one of those. In my portfolio I used my Beside You Music video, and my Lost and profound script. I just can't shake this feeling that I got in!!!

Fingers Crossed :)

M.E.A.T.

No no no I'm not talking about poultry or deli or anything like that. I'm talking about Melanie Elizabeth Anne Terry, my sister. I have never blogged about my sister, but I think it's time I devoted a blog just to her.

My sister is 2 years and 12 days younger than me. We used to get along really well when we were kids (like most brothers and sisters do), and then once we moved to Oshawa, things went downhill.

When we were in high school, my sister was very embarrassed of me, I think it's because I was not part of that "cool" crowd, and that I had my own little clique. She always said things to her friends about me, and they kinda always giggled after I walked by, or said something under their breath. Things have gotten better through the years, not much, but enough that we can at least have somewhat of a half-assed conversation with each other. But it's not what I want. I want to be able to have a close relationship with my sister, I always have.

I want to be that brother who you can talk to when something isn't going right, when you need someone to talk to. I want to be that brother that you are close with, that brother that you tell people about who is always there for you.

Even though I highly doubt you will read this, I want you to know, I am always here for you no matter what. I love you Melanie, like a brother should love his sister.

I want you to know this, like I said, even though you will probably never read this.

COMPLETED!!!!

FINALLY!!!! I have overcome Satan in the essay writing. Holy hell! (no pun intended....actually). I have finished my rough draft and it has gone through two edits, and then all I have to do is get daddy to edit it, then I should be good to print it off :)

SO excited :) I hope all this work pays off in the end, my DVD, my script, AND an essay, it better pay off, I think when it's done I might post it here and see if you guys like it or not, then take it down so no one else can steal it, because I put A LOT of work into this essay and application.

So thanks to Melissa and Kristen for editing it :)

Essays...

Oh boy, I realized now why I never did so good in English class.... I fucking hate essays. I can't be creative, it's a very structured piece of thing, and I hate it! I have to write a short essay for Centennial college explaining why I should be in this program and yadda yadda yadda.

Did I mention I hate essays?

I guess I better get back to work -_-

Acceptance :D

So I got a letter in the mail today saying that I got accepted to Sheridan College in Oakville. Not my preferred college, but hey acceptance is acceptance! I also got a letter in the mail today from Centennial College (the one that I REALLY want to get into) saying all they need now is a short essay explaining why I am meant to be in this program (which I am currently stumped on, because I haven't written an essay in a couple years, guess I better get used to it :P ) and I also, for a portfolio, need a DVD (which I don't know which one to use, I have the Sweeney DVD or the Lost and Profound....then again I am also working on a music video.... so many choices!) and something else, I think I will probably write a script, a short script... yeah that sounds good :)

I really hope some good comes out of this....wish me luck!

College Application

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I JUST APPLIED FOR COLLEGE :D

I am SOOOO happy now that I finally got that huge weight off my shoulders :)

Thank you mom and dad SOOO much for letting me apply :)

I love how I have not even been accepted yet, and I am already this excited :D

I REALLY hope I get accepted to Centennial, my number one choice of colleges :)

SOOOO Excited!!!!

The Corral

Last night was the first time in a while that I had gone out of the house to have fun. Oh did I have fun! The band was awesome, the company was just hysterical, and the drinks were awesome :) I just want everyone to know that I had a blast and I learned, age doesn't matter when you are going out to have fun. Everyone who I went out with was old enough to be my mother pretty much, and I STILL had a ball!

Cheers to an awesome night!

Being a vegetarian

Being a vegetarian is a lot harder than I thought it would be. The thing that is making it the hardest is my father. This is not the only time that I have not been able to please him. He texted me yesterday saying that I should just eat meat and that it "won't kill me". This is one of many occasions that my family hasn't supported me on my choices. Like my acting, I LOVE to act and one day my cousin commented on my status that I should just play hockey. I love to act, I love to be creative, and very few people in my family respect that. It pisses me off that they don't respect what I want to do in life. Even relationships, not very supportive (that is a little more understandable but still!).

I just wish my family supported me more than they do.

Trust...

Being able to trust someone whether it's a friendship, a business relationship, or a romantic relationship, is the most important thing above all. I know it may be hard because you're so used to keeping things to yourself, but you can open up to me. No matter what it is , you can tell me, I will never use it against you, I will never judge you because of it. Whatever it is that bothers you that originally you could never tell before, you can tell me. Trust, it's essential, if anything, trust is the most important thing in any kind of bond, especially this kind. Whatever it is, you can tell me.

That is all.

No Life

OK, so you have no life....not you that is reading this, but a customer that came through my till today.

This is what happened:

I was doing my thing, scanning punching in numbers; when this complete and total bitch that asked me very innocently "do you guys still bag?" I replied "yes we do, but you didn't present your bags to me, so I didn't bag it, plus it's busy m'am" she then turned to her son and said "stop packing, he can do the rest", I had another customer in line, who seemed very impatient, and I said to her "m'am, I have another customer in line, I can't bag, it will hold everyone up" She then proceeded to tell me "Fine, I wanna talk to your manager" At that point, I was furious, so I gave her receipt and her change, didn't say a word, mind you since my hands were shaking it was a little rough, she then gave me a really dirty look and said to me "Now I'm DEFINITELY talking to your manager!" Then she stormed off.

See my point? She has nothing better to do than to complain that I didn't pack her own fucking grocery bags! Seriously what the fuck!

I think I'm done venting.