OK, so, lots to say! Where do I begin??
Well I'm dating this amazing woman, never been treated better. But that's not the best thing that has happened to me.
On New Years eve, Erin and her dad took me to this Christian conference. I had no idea what to expect, but it definitely wasn't this. We get there and she wanted to go to the front of the stage where a band was playing, and I said "Sure, why not". So there we are, at the front of the stage, and almost immediately, I looked around and saw all these Christians that are just completely free, that had absolutely no care in the world what people thought of them as they were praising God. Up until this moment, I had considered myself getting really close with God, and being good at praying to God and thanking him. But at this moment, I felt small, and that I didn't belong. I was close to leaving the room, because I felt alone in the room. But then there was this song that this band started playing, now I can't remember the lyrics right now, but all I remember is that they hit me really hard. I felt myself change in that moment. I felt the Holy Spirit come to me, and change me. My past has been taken away and burnt. And I realized how much I need God, and that God was what I was missing in my life.
This was New Years eve 2010. The New Years eve that changed my life.
I am now a new man, I can see the mold that God has for me; a godly man, serving him. I am leaving the man I was behind and moving forward.
Yesterday morning, January 2nd, 2011.
Went to a new kind of church service. Once again, didn't know what to expect. Being a former Catholic, everything and everyone is reserved, everything is formal and scripted and predictable. Coming into this church, once again, I felt like I didn't belong, I felt like I didn't know how to pray. Seeing these people so happy so free once again, hearing the pastor pray so powerfully. I felt like I wasn't a good Christian. But then I was told that God doesn't go by your words, but by what your heart is saying.
2011 is going to be a really good year, I an feel it. God has great plans for this year. And I am so very excited to see what He has in store!!
