Holy fuck! School is starting to become soo stressful! There are proposals coming out of my ass, rough cuts like there's no tomorrow, and running out of creative ideas FAST! idk what I'm gonna fuckin do! I have a shit load of films to make this semester and I have no idea where these ideas are going to come from and how I'm going to get all this shit done. PLUS there are these blogs that are killing me.
And on top of this all, my family life is at it's worse. I'm under so much pressure and I feel like I'm going to explode with pressure!
I'm lucky that my girlfriend is being so supportive in all this, otherwise I would have already burst into a bajillion pieces. I love you baby, we'll make our dream come true soon!
Until next time, ciao
Friday, October 21, 2011
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Wow, haven't done this in a while
Well, second semester is only a month a way from completion. Stress is starting to pile up, but hey, I have God on my side, so it will all work out.Let me take the time to explain that for a minute or two:
Over the past few months, I have learned to completely trust God with EVERYTHING, because in the end He is the one with the perfect plan, He is the one who watches over and guides me, all I have to do is turn to him.
Remember my post about New Years Eve? Well, since then, my faith has gotten stronger. For a little while it got weaker, from some stuff that I was going through (which I would rather not share with the general public) but for a while I thought that God was punishing me for my past. It took me a while to realize that God doesn't care about my past, he burnt it, and it's now ashes in the wind. Once I realized that, I have been able to get back on my feet, and realize that, with the help of God, I can get through this, become the man I want to become, and leave the man I was behind, leave that hurtful, wreck behind.
Last night I went for a walk, I needed to sort some thoughts out. While I was doing so, I felt the need to talk to God, to help him rid me of my past, and the man I used to be. So I said to God "Leave the man I was behind, and let me walk out of here a new man, a refreshed man, and help me to live my life for You, and to be carefree under your wing". And He did so. I now feel like a new, refreshed person, wise, Godly, and more understanding than I used to be. I feel stronger now, not insecure. My insecurities have vanished! All because God has been there for me, and He has helped me through all this and He will continue to guide me to where I need to go.
From now on, I live my life through, and with God, because that is the only way I can be happy is. if I give EVERYTHING to God, all my stress, all my problems, any insecurities I may develop. God is the ultimate provider, and the ultimate protector. I am learning to live my life to the fullest, unafraid of making mistakes, because it will help me to grow, and become a better person, and ultimately, God will forgive me, and He will still love me.
That is all I have to share for now, no idea when I will be posting again, hopefully this is the first of many :)
God Bless!
Monday, January 3, 2011
Welcome 2011!!
OK, so, lots to say! Where do I begin??
Well I'm dating this amazing woman, never been treated better. But that's not the best thing that has happened to me.
On New Years eve, Erin and her dad took me to this Christian conference. I had no idea what to expect, but it definitely wasn't this. We get there and she wanted to go to the front of the stage where a band was playing, and I said "Sure, why not". So there we are, at the front of the stage, and almost immediately, I looked around and saw all these Christians that are just completely free, that had absolutely no care in the world what people thought of them as they were praising God. Up until this moment, I had considered myself getting really close with God, and being good at praying to God and thanking him. But at this moment, I felt small, and that I didn't belong. I was close to leaving the room, because I felt alone in the room. But then there was this song that this band started playing, now I can't remember the lyrics right now, but all I remember is that they hit me really hard. I felt myself change in that moment. I felt the Holy Spirit come to me, and change me. My past has been taken away and burnt. And I realized how much I need God, and that God was what I was missing in my life.
This was New Years eve 2010. The New Years eve that changed my life.
I am now a new man, I can see the mold that God has for me; a godly man, serving him. I am leaving the man I was behind and moving forward.
Yesterday morning, January 2nd, 2011.
Went to a new kind of church service. Once again, didn't know what to expect. Being a former Catholic, everything and everyone is reserved, everything is formal and scripted and predictable. Coming into this church, once again, I felt like I didn't belong, I felt like I didn't know how to pray. Seeing these people so happy so free once again, hearing the pastor pray so powerfully. I felt like I wasn't a good Christian. But then I was told that God doesn't go by your words, but by what your heart is saying.
2011 is going to be a really good year, I an feel it. God has great plans for this year. And I am so very excited to see what He has in store!!
Well I'm dating this amazing woman, never been treated better. But that's not the best thing that has happened to me.
On New Years eve, Erin and her dad took me to this Christian conference. I had no idea what to expect, but it definitely wasn't this. We get there and she wanted to go to the front of the stage where a band was playing, and I said "Sure, why not". So there we are, at the front of the stage, and almost immediately, I looked around and saw all these Christians that are just completely free, that had absolutely no care in the world what people thought of them as they were praising God. Up until this moment, I had considered myself getting really close with God, and being good at praying to God and thanking him. But at this moment, I felt small, and that I didn't belong. I was close to leaving the room, because I felt alone in the room. But then there was this song that this band started playing, now I can't remember the lyrics right now, but all I remember is that they hit me really hard. I felt myself change in that moment. I felt the Holy Spirit come to me, and change me. My past has been taken away and burnt. And I realized how much I need God, and that God was what I was missing in my life.
This was New Years eve 2010. The New Years eve that changed my life.
I am now a new man, I can see the mold that God has for me; a godly man, serving him. I am leaving the man I was behind and moving forward.
Yesterday morning, January 2nd, 2011.
Went to a new kind of church service. Once again, didn't know what to expect. Being a former Catholic, everything and everyone is reserved, everything is formal and scripted and predictable. Coming into this church, once again, I felt like I didn't belong, I felt like I didn't know how to pray. Seeing these people so happy so free once again, hearing the pastor pray so powerfully. I felt like I wasn't a good Christian. But then I was told that God doesn't go by your words, but by what your heart is saying.
2011 is going to be a really good year, I an feel it. God has great plans for this year. And I am so very excited to see what He has in store!!
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